Tuesday, January 23, 2007


the waiting is over. was brought to the hospital jan. 12 to face another page of my life which i have to deal with courage and strength. i don't know what will be the outcome all i know is i put my trust completely in Him. i was visited by friends before my operation, kaye, amor and deedee was there to give me moral support. i asked chay, gina and cherry to come also so that they can pray over me, of course my sisters were also there together with mama and papa. just feel relaxed and anticipating of what will happen the next day. unfortunately i wasn't able to sleep, the night was short moving faster so that the waiting will come to an end. . early morning of jan. 13 at about 6 in the morning i was brought already to the O.R. for the surgery. was sleepy because of the medicine i took but i can't sleep until they injected me with the anaesthesia felt numbness over my body especially the lower part of my body, thus the procedure began. i was awake during the procedure because i can't breathe i was gasping for air and at the same time praying wishing that it will be over, the ordeal lasted for almost two hours. until finally i was brought to the recovery room, felt numbness in my feet, i can move them but the nurse assured me that it's just the after effect of the anesthesia. until slowly i was trying to move my toes and afterwards my feet thanks God. i was able to sleep soundly and was tired of the whole procedure. i was moved to my room and mama, papa and ninin was there didn't talk because i feel sleepy and besides i wasn't allowed to talk. Thank God I'm still alive and finally the waiting is over. I thank the people who prayed for me. Life has to go on, to another chapter of hope and loving.

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

the waiting

i've been out of the office for almost a week now. i feel closer to Him in this particular moment of my life. sometimes i don't know why certain things happen but i have great trust in God He knows what is best for me. the past week have been one of the darkest moments of my life because of what the doctor told me, but now have to move on and live life as it is. it's difficult to hide my weaknesses sometimes have to show it to others, it's my way of outpouring my emotions. i tried to hide from my loved ones don't want them to worry about me. have 2 more days to go before the operation i live everything to God i know He sees what's in my heart and He knows my needs, never felt closer to Him at this moment. finally the waiting will be over and i know in my heart that i will be healed through the grace of the Lord. Thank you my Creator and to the GREAT HEALER of all.

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