Tonight I Can Write the Saddest Lines by Arnel Paciano Casanova

Tonight I can write the saddest lines
Write for example "The floodgates are shattered and the heavens shiver as it cries"
The night wind wails in mourning and the sky bowed down
Tonight I can write the saddest lines
I loved my people and they loved me too
though at nights like this, I wanted to hold them closely in my arms
but i lost them in the rage of the heavens
As their tears swept them to the edge of the seas
I loved them and they loved me too
How could one not love their sweetest smiles and gentle eyes
Tonight I write the saddest lines
To know that I did not have them and lost them in my arms
To hear the silence in the crashing waves
Makes the night darker than dark
To feel the emptiness of the moonlight sucks the strength in my heart

why would it matter if my love could not keep them
my heart is shattered and they are not with me
That is all. in the horizon, a dirge is singing.
in the horizon my spirit longs for the joyful children lost in the sea
like Sisa, I search for my Basilios shouting their names
until my voice is hoarse unheard , unheeded
we from this time, will not be the same
i love my people and i shall never fail loving them
that is certain and if my love could not keep them
i shall make my love greater than the tears that the heavens could give
they will be in my gentle arms yet strong, unbent
their laughter, their hopes, their dreams will be safe in my heart
i shall love them even if i have to endure the pain
even if the floodgates would open again
the love of my people and my love for them
shall forever endure
we shall speak to the universe in compassion
because through nights like this one i held them in my arms
the pain of loving and losing shall make me
regain the strength to stand, walk and believe and love again.

Little Voice

There's a voice in the wilderness whispering
even in the lyrics of songs that i sing
it touches my heart
it touches my whole being
sometimes i can't resist
i kept on denying
i kept on ignoring
pretending not to hear it
for so long now
the voice is still there
waiting to be heard
i can't decide
i can't let it go
cried so many tears
have many sleepless nights
thinking of what to do with my life
what do you want me to do
it's not clear to me
lead me to the way
oftentimes i failed you
but still you are there for me
loving me unconditionally
am not good enough to be worthy of you
you love me even if i am not perfect
there are times that i blame you
but still you are there
you have loved me so much
that you are afraid that i'll get hurt in the process of loving
but you allowed me to get hurt sometimes
you don't get tired of listening to me
though there are times that i forget you
thanks for your great love
you are the one who truly loves me

Reflections

lately i've beeng singing sad songs
thinking of what has gone wrong
am i to blame for this gloomy feeling
tired of this kind of emotion
i always end up hurt and alone
you never said goodbye
but i can feel it in your coldness
you seem so far and yet you are near
how will i confront you
i'm afraid of experiencing the same pain
slowly you're breaking my heart into pieces
how can i go on with life
feel like putting all the broken pieces again
it's not that easy to mend
it takes time to heal
thought your promise will be forever
i was wrong you've changed
am hurting and left alone again
when can i find true love
i am tired of being in love
when will my heart stop beating
will just wait for the right time
will my destiny will lead me
when that time will come
hope everyhting will fall into place
you will be there to fill my emptiness
with love and happiness
because there's you and me together
looking at the same direction
sharing an everlasting love forever.